Yeah, I'm still here!
Cross-training: Lots of time with the pup :)
Overall outlook? Thats kind of a long story.
Kim wrote this post about priorities a while back that has been constantly on my mind. I know that my blog, and running in general should be high on my priority list, but it just is not right now. In fact, career has been at the top of my priority list for the past month. I know that makes me sound like an asshole, but its true. I really do want to be successful at my job. As a result, everything else has suffered. Mostly, running and the blog, though. I have been terrible at keeping up with my own blog, and all my friend's blogs, and i promise you its something I'm working on right now. Now that i started a new, and ultimately much better for me job, i am able to look back over the past few months, and realize I was really and seriously depressed, and i didn't even realize it. I was so miserable, and i felt like there was no escape. This week alone, my energy has tripled. I have been catching up on every i have been neglecting for months (except the blog, whoopsies!) but primarily my health. I am starting to feel human again. All my training has been crap this year, not because i became a terrible runner, but because i was really unhealthy, mentally and physically.
But now that i am in a better place, i can shift priorities again. I can focus this energy and health into rebuilding myself as a runner again, something i have neglected. I have been beating myself up over not being able to run as much or do as much as everyone else, and that is stupid because it just ends in tears and drinking. I even had a breakdown over all this during my long run on Saturday - how i have been failing for the entire year. A complete stranger just looked at me and said, "You're really hard on yourself, aren't you?" And it kind of hit me that, yeah, i am kind of an asshole to myself.
I don't know where any of this is going, i just felt the need to explain why i have been absent, why i haven't been running, and why i have been neglecting the blog. My priorities are in a state of constant movement right now. My health is now shifting to priority one - Eating right, sleeping enough, and exercise! Two things I am really excited about? Joining a Roller Derby group (more on that later) and Soon joining the ymca by my work (probably more on that as well). I am now able to start rebuilding myself, and i am very excited to do so.
I hope you will stick around watch :)
Sorry to get all serious- I have an awesome story about vomiting on the lakefront trail coming up tomorrow!